What does love means to you?

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 at9:23 PM

Many of times, people would take love for granted. They think that love is something that is just physically and not much on the psychological part. To me, i am an emotional and sensitive person. I take my relationship seriously, so dont think i would like to go into a relationsip recklessly again.

Yesterday night, I met jack and his new gf, cassandra and sebas(they are couple now) downstairs my block.. I wasnt shock to see cassandra and sebas together as i have already know that it is a sooner or later thing. I wouldn be shock to see jack having a gf, cos he always hoping to have one. And i would denied that his gf is really hot! And overall i am happy for them..

At a certain point of time, i suddenly thought of a girl... A girl who loved her ex bf so much that she is willing to sacrifice for him and yet now she have to see her bf hugging another girl. I really wonder how is she now.. And i hope she is fine..

Speaking of this, it reminded me the times when i was with Jerel. The time spend with Jerel wasnt long, but with the short 8mths plus, i really enjoy myself very much. Although our relationship was like a roller coaster ride, but i still feel happy whenever i am with him. Going to the end of our relationship, on the very last day, we still loves each other and enjoy being together. But because of the other girl, he left me at the zoo and i was like a fool who kept on waiting and waiting for him to come back, but he didnt.. He left without a word.. And that is how we have ended our relationship..

Next month the 6th of december, it is the day where we broke up and i will still remenber it deeply cos the wound that he have made in me have not healed yet. I am still bleeding..

After him, i have phobia getting into a relationship.. But not until i met nengwei. Although he would loves to hold my hand and kissing each other like what the other couples does, due to my phobia, i cant satisfy his needs.. Eventually we broke up due to lack of communications and because of my ridiculous phobia.

Now i am glad that he have found himself a gf and i believe they will be doing well:) Nengwei is a good guy, but it is just that i didnt cherish him when we are together.. It is always too late to realise the mistake..

After so many attempts of relationships, i have learned my lesson that i shouldn have gone into a relationship so recklessly.. i should stop, observe, plan then action! hahas:)

Although there maybe chances that i can go into a relationship, i would still choose to wait.. and wait for right time and be together... I believe the one who love me would understand..

waiting for the right time........

love,
aphrodite