Missing the good old times..
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 at4:52 AM
Everytime i flip over my photo album.. There have all the good old times that i have with my friends from young till now.. Everyone changes overtime.. and good friends go and come like wind.. hahas:) Only very good and trustworthy friends would stay with you till the end, no matter what happens..
Many things has past, but why am i still clinging on to it? It doesnt even worth my thoughts, but i still think about it despite knowing that it is time to put down.. A year has passed, yet i still cant put down the past.. Am i really that stubborn?? many ppl would say yes.. but to me, no one would ever understand what i have gone through.. I am just suffering in silence..
I maybe a person who needs constant encouragment.. And i think that habit should change, and be more independent.. hais.. have been living behind the mask for so long.. Only those close friends would understand me very well.. When i am feeling happy, when i am feeling sad, when i am feeling abit weird.. without a word, they can tell through my expression.. Even when i am putting on a smile, but i am feeling down, they also know.. Nothing can hide from their eyes..
I am a person who could be easily read by others.. And thats is why many friends are always there for me when i am feeling down.. and i am grateful for having them:) Thank you friends for being there for me when i needed you guys the most..
Relationship to me is not so important.. but if i am really in a relationship, i just hope that my partner would understand me well.. I dont really like to do those things that those couples do.. I have my own phobia.. and becos of this phobia, i have already lost alot interest in relationship.. hais.. when can i gain back my confidence? I dont know.. I am really disappointed in myself..
I just hope that i would know the answer to my problems soon.. hais.. cant stop thinking about it..
with love,
aphrodite
